Saturday, January 10, 2009

God's girl!

So you ever have so many things going through your head at once that it is hard to keep up with them.

What will Diane do with her hair?

Who will Mrs B fight with this week?

What did I do with those keys?

How did my stomach get sooooo big?

Why can't I be more like Gianna?

I heard an amazing speaker tonight at church. Our sanctity of life sermon...which is always a heart wrenching. So this time, I was actually prepared. With tissue in hand I sat with my family ready to sob for all those without a voice.

I sat there listening to this spunky woman who referred to herself as God's girl!

She was blessed with cerebral palsy.

One would could CP be a blessing? That's what she say's...."it is a BLESSING!"

Gianna is a survivor from a botched abortion. She was not supposed to be alive today. But she is...with a BIG voice for our Lord and Savior.

As I sat there listening to her, I was in awe of her faith. But why? Why would it surprise me that God could do all that he has promised us? She talked about how she hates victims.....the term we put on ourselves when we are at a loss off control of our circumstances.

She struck a cord with me. I struggle with depression. At times, I have to admit, I do feel like a victim. Why do I have to fight this paralyzing disease? Why is it such a struggle for me to lift my head off the pillow some mornings? As difficult as it is for me to fathom...God has blessed me with something that He WILL use for His glory.

Yeah...I don't get it. But I don't really have too.

If I put my trust and faith completely in Him, He WILL lift my head off that pillow each day, and I don't have to budge. His promises are far greater that my mind can comprehend. His promise is to never forsake me. How awesome is that!

Lord, help me to be YOUR GIRL!